I’m currently 27 weeks going into my 28th of my second pregnancy. We have been so blessed with our two year old son Lorenzo and even more blessed our second pregnancy is with our sweet baby girl. It’s so rare and so lucky for us to be blessed with one of each and for that I’m so thankful because my hubby already said if this one was a boy there would of been a third!? So I’m even more greatful it’s our sweet baby girl.
This pregnancy has been so different to my pregnancy with my son that I think right from the start I knew it was a girl because of just how different it all was. In the next almost 12 weeks we will be welcoming our baby girl into this world and I’m going to be honest and say I’m so scared and extremely excited for this next chapter for the Caesar family.
Our family will be complete the four of us plus our family dog zues, we definitely think we are set and connent with a family of four so as I’m writing these words I’m getting a little emtional knowing this is definitely the end of my pregnancy journey.
In almost 12 weeks ” I say almost because we are not there yet.” I will push out a baby for the very last time, this is the last time I’ll feel baby kicks from the inside, nausea all hours of the day & night, last time I can freely use the “I’m pregnant card” with hubby and the very last time my body will look the way it does. And I’m a little emtional about this and I’m more emtional for the many women who are still trying to have what I’ve been blessed to have twice now, I know that pain, I know the hardship they are going through I’ve seen it first hand and I’ve been there and I still see it around me on a weekly basis. So yeah I’m emtional knowing I’m at the end of my journey and there are women out there still trying to just get to the beginning of theirs and I will continue to pray for all of these women and their rainbow.
But don’t hate me for what I’m about say… But I’m so relieved “my” journey is almost at the end. I would be lying if I sat here and said I’m enjoying every little bit of this pregnancy because the truth is the second pregnancy is so much more intense… With Lorenzo both hubby and I were on cloud nine the whole time even when we were in and out of hospital I was still over the moon about being pregnant. This time around I’m running after a two year old, trying to balance working full time with fiftheen children a day, trying to love myself and take care of myself as well as my family. I’m run down, tired, in pain and just trying to keep a float some days. I’ve cried a lot this pregnancy to my family saying “how am I meant to do this?” Am I going to mother two children? Will I cope how will I cope, can I still work full-time with two children? Or should I start dealing with the fact I need to go part time.?
But she is worth it all just like Lorenzo was. I’ll miss all these things the good & bad and I know I will even though right now I can’t wait for the bad to end I’ll miss it a few years down the track when she’s starting kindergarten for the first time I’ll look back on being pregnant with her and try and remember it all but I’ll be so thankful for these blogs that I get to re-live this very moment I’m talking about. I still find myself reading Lorenzo’s birth blog and it’s a nice reminder of how hard I worked just to have him here with us and now he’s two.
We know our lives are going to become way more busy and hard but we wouldn’t of had it any other way, we always knew we would have two, we knew we wanted them close in age and we knew we wanted a two year age gap and this is what we got. We survived the newborn stage with Lorenzo we can do it all over again and be a boss! We know what we are doing and we know what we want for our family we are just ticking more goals off our family list.
So I’m going to enjoy these last 12 weeks I’m going to try and enjoy every little bit of this pregnancy and soak it all in for this is our last and I know I’ll miss it in a few years.
The Caesar family ❌